Staying Awake

Can someone tell me how I can stay awake doing computer work for 8 hours per day? There’s so many things to be done and I am doing online counselling also to help people to deal with their breakups and grief. At times, clients would message me till 1230 midnight and although I have no limit to my working hours, I am tired. Really tired.

As I am typing this, Daniel Says Hi to all of you too! So a big warm Noon Hello from Daniel who is having a short tea break from his course. He never fails to make me smile, he remembers all the teeny weeny details I told him about my meetings and he’s just so nice lah!

Staying awake has been difficult cos I always thought I am not tired but I am when I tend to skip my usual sleeping hours. Yesterday I had to tell Daniel that I had to sleep because I have a meeting today.

As im typing this, I am widely smiling and feeling sleepy at the same time, I ate my usual Koko Crunch and milk for breakfast but it didn’t boost me more to be more awake.

Maybe you can share with me what I can do to keep myself awake. Sometimes, I feel really sleepy that once I just fell asleep with my laptop on the bed. When I woke up, im lucky, that the laptop is still on my lap and it didn’t fell off halfway.

Ok, by the writing of this, Im getting more  and more energy because Daniel is messaging me right now and I am feeling so so so so so awake by his jokes to make my day. I just don’t see why he is so humble towards everything and at the same time paying attention to every single details, and it’s just that he is just super nice towards everything and the most important thing is that he cares for every bloody single thing that is happening.

Sometimes, I wanna punch myself and see whether I am in dream or reality, cos this is the kind of guy every girl wants. He is the guy who is so superb and it makes a girl feel so special without any gifts and rewards but just comforting words and encouragement….

I don’t know but I am utterly totally happy. Like the kind of feeling, maybe he’s just right for me, but we both wanna take it easy first and he would always remind me to drink my coke because that’s where we started knowing each other

It was because he chose 100Plus and I chose Coke and we talked.

this is his very last message before he resume his course, “u dun forget to drink coke ok?

Then i say, ” You dont forget to smoke ok.”

And he says ” thanks for reminding….”

and I would giggle by myself because it is like reminding a guy to consume something bad and encouraging him to do that.

God, if we are ever meant to be, please let it be.

Cos I am happy to be with him.

Please pray for me guys…..

 

With Much Love,
Fatin Syairah….

It’s Thursday and many are already looking forward to the weekends! I set up this blog for my readers to read about how I went through my life in a breakup. This blog serves as my venting out tool because when I broke up, it was harsh on me and I had to talk it out somewhere and so I chose this place. It’s been 8 months since I have been single and I find that time passes fast without me realising it.

The transition of singlehood wasn’t easy for  me. As most of you might have known it, I was in a 6 years relationship previously. I went through the stages of grief and also denial and find that there are many ways which could actually work and I have adopted many best practices for it.

Thank God, my sad phase of life has been gone but only the memories and pain left staying. In times like this, I equipped myself with many activities and work in making my life a better one to live for.

On 29 May 2012, I met Daniel who was really nice. He often potraits himself well and have been quite of an understanding person. Today, of only 2 days of knowing him, I find him driven to develop himself into a better person. He’s 26 and is a policemen. I told him how I have always wanted to be one and how I drive to be in the CID department. He told me that he was attached to CID for a year and shares his experiences with me.

We’ve only known for 2 days but the kind of respect he gives me is refreshing for a new start. We talked about my fever (I was having fever last two nights and fell asleep when he text me) and how I was coping emotionally. He went through breakups and death and shared with me how it felt to lose a loved one.

It’s really refreshing because now, I tend to appreciate life better and accept that people leave and it is normal. I talked to Daniel on how I was emotionally down for 4 months before I regain myself back up again.

Well, for a start, it’s nice to have someone who shares the same views as you once in a while.

We have been really understanding towards each other and It’s been nice for us.

It was because of my fever that brought us together. And he was the first person to wish me an advanced 23rd birthday.

I don’t know how to say this but I kind of like the way he is and how he complements me. I get all jiggle up when he text me and I feel happy that he always asked how I was or how I am feeling every now and then. Maybe it’s too early to talk about things now, but he’s the one guy that I know who is afraid of telling me that he smokes. I don’t know why he was afraid, perhaps that is a good sign, and he told me he will quit and all but it’s  hard but I told him that it’s ok for him to smoke but to just drink lots of plain water.

I think he was surprised by my cool reaction. So he tried to clarify further. So I told him I understand how it feels to have pressures all over and how smoking might help him. So things kind of get better after that cos we really understood each other very well.

I especially love the part that for two nights, he really showed concern over my fever and asked me to rest well and all.

I think that his job is cool and he thinks that my business is cool.

Maybe I have to start telling myself it’s been only two days.

I’m really getting excited for today but still Im open to all the other options that I have.

Till then, Wish me Luck Guys…..

With Much Love,
Fatin Syairah.

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I was featured in a Spanish Website

Hello everyone, I was so glad when I saw my name featured in one of the spanish website on my article featured in a website

Proud and  happy for myself!

 

Enough is enough.

What we have gone through is enough for our keepsakes. All that I need is for you people to stop judging and for once stop assuming things because things are not the way you have assumed it to be.

Enough tears have gone through the cheeks, if you are just being so anal about every single thing that we are doing, that’s really none of our business because you people have chirping mouths and can talk all you want till the world is dead for you.

Our lives be it poorer or richer should serve no purpose to anybody else to interfere. I think people got so bored of their own lives to be talking about other’s lives.

So, get a life and start reconstructing your life before meddling into others lives.

Like seriously, see and mend your own before you meddle into our territory. Or perhaps you might want to hear a piece of story from your own son ? If you read this, maybe you should ask your son. On…ermmmm, what he was doing at that place?

Because to tell you the truth, even your own children are not telling you what they are up to. Even they got sick of the “rules” that you hold. Even they keep secrets from you.

So just please, stop your nonsense. It’s so low class to be gossipping about matters that never bring you any benefits.

Not that you get any money from it right? With your gossips, we just become stronger and you just are fooling yourself.

Once again, get REAL.

Little emmy

Emmy lizzie wud always laugh and smile… Just love the way she sees the world. This australian kid will always be my love

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Changi Airport.

For every overseas trips that I make, Singapore Changi Airport has been the best place or best airport that I have been into. Not saying that I actually love Singapore as it is my country but it is convenient for me. I remembered on one of the trips, I have forgotten my hairband and I look like a messed up girl. With the convenience in Changi Airport terminal 2 mini bits,  I had my troubled free days….

So I wanted to capture my video moments boarding a flight and all but was too embarassed to do so because the next person to me may think that I am crazy or something, and since travelling has been so frequent, I no longer get excited of the thought of going out of Singapore even New York. It’s no longer the jakun days where I even took pictures of my flight tickets!

Here’s some pics that has been taken on trips to Singapore Airport from home. Pardon the low quality pictures. Taken from my phone.

Boarding the sky train from terminal 2 to terminal 1. At my first virgin experience of alighting at Changi Airport Mrt Station, I was clueless of where to walk to. With bags of heavy stuffs and luggages, everyone who arrived at Changi Airport seems to be a better guide than me. And so I just figured my way off and I was actually rushing through everytime cos I have to make a trip for Nature’s Call everytime before take off! It pisses me off!

Signage in Singapore Airport. Crystal Clear.

till we meet again

Love,

Quick shot

Love my lips in this picture.